I did not get the job. To say I am disappointed would be a BIG understatement.
So, you ask, where does this leave me? It leaves me working part-time at a job I like but don’t see any future in. It leaves me unsure of myself and feeling pretty damn low. Even though I was 99 and 44/100 percent sure I was NOT going to get the job, this one really hurt. I think this is because I have been so darned flexible with covering for sick/vacationing co-workers and in doing what ever crappy job that needed to be done. I’ve tried so hard to expand my knowledge of the job and to learn extra skills and to SHARE the knowledge that I have with everyone.
So, tomorrow, it’s back to work…acting as if this hasn’t rattled me and made me feel like crap. It’s time to update the old resume. I have an appointment on Monday at the Career Services Center of Southwest Florida to see if there is any funding for going back to school. I have to do something before my age becomes an issue in hiring me. I can’t depend on anyone else to do this for me. I’m going to have to take the message I’ve recieved from this experience and learn from it. I think I have.