I Feel So Good

I had my follow up doctor’s appointment today.  I’ve been really nervous because I had gained some of the weight I had lost back.  When I stepped on the scale at the doctor’s office, it weighed me lighter than I had anticipated (3 pounds less than my home scale!) According to the doctor’s scale, I have lost 14 pounds. That is my official total now.  My blood pressure was back to normal and I had absolutely no edema in my legs, ankles, feet.  The doctor was THRILLED.  He actually said he was proud of me.  He, of course, wanted to know what I have been doing to achieve this weight loss.  I explained that I was using www.SparkPeople.com to count my calories and log my exercise. I said that I walk at the mall with my friend Claudia. He was impressed that we had walked 4 miles yesterday.  I also told him about exercising with the Wii Fit. He was happy to hear how supportive my family and friends have been.  My husband, Mike, has been so helpful and has eaten some interesting meals.  (Thank you for being so great about the ones that weren’t so tasty!)

I am feeling so good. 

I remember…

I was sitting alone in the “finance” office at Somera when we lost our Internet connection. I got up an went to the sales side of the building to see what was going on. That’s when I found out that a plane had crashed into the World Trade Center.
We all sat there looking at each other and wondering what was going on. At one point, Jim Smith said, “Wasn’t Jay (the boss) supposed to fly to California this morning?” I looked up his itinerary and sure enough, I had booked him on Flight 11 to California. We tried calling him at home and on his cell, but we could not.
We all sat there looking at each other, pale and sick with worry. It was several two or three hour before we found out that Jay was home and safe. He had changed his flight to a later one and hadn’t told anyone.
We closed the office shortly after and all went home to be with our families. The ride home was odd. There were no planes. Being about an hour away from Newark Airport, we were on the flight paths of departing and arriving planes all day, but today it was quiet.

NEVER FORGET – 09/11/01

Career exploration contintues…

In my continuing persuit of what I want to be when I grow up, I have taken one of those “career tests”.  Apparently I am the GUARDIAN type.  After reading the below description, I think they are correct.  Here are my results….

Your Keirsey Temperament Sorter Results indicates that your personality type is that of the Guardian

Guardians are the cornerstone of society, for they are the temperament given to serving and preserving our most important social institutions. Guardians have natural talent in managing goods and services–from supervision to maintenance and supply — and they use all their skills to keep things running smoothly in their families, communities, schools, churches, hospitals, and businesses.

 Guardians can have a lot of fun with their friends, but they are quite serious about their duties and responsibilities. Guardians take pride in being dependable and trustworthy; if there’s a job to be done, they can be counted on to put their shoulder to the wheel. Guardians also believe in law and order, and sometimes worry that respect for authority, even a fundamental sense of right and wrong, is being lost. Perhaps this is why Guardians honor customs and traditions so strongly — they are familiar patterns that help bring stability to our modern, fast-paced world.

Practical and down-to-earth, Guardians believe in following the rules and cooperating with others. They are not very comfortable winging it or blazing new trails; working steadily within the system is the Guardian way, for in the long run loyalty, discipline, and teamwork get the job done right. Guardians are meticulous about schedules and have a sharp eye for proper procedures. They are cautious about change, even though they know that change can be healthy for an institution. Better to go slowly, they say, and look before you leap.

Guardians make up as much as 40 to 45 percent of the population, and a good thing, because they usually end up doing all the indispensable but thankless jobs everyone else takes for granted.

 Guardians at Work

As a Guardian, you enjoy working as a valued member of a team, whether you are leading it or following a credible leader. You like to work with people who carry their weight. You appreciate having clear-cut responsibilities and being recognized for your dedication and achievements. Your natural traits are those that employers have traditionally valued – and that successful companies still respect. You are responsible and loyal to an organization once you’ve signed on.

In any environment, including your work place, you are usually focused on making people happy and facilitating harmonious relationships. You often lend “aid and comfort” by drawing on a combination of tradition, past experience, and the direction of established authority. In your ideal job, people would give of themselves and work toward the good of the group.

 The four types of Guardians are: Provider (ESFJ) | Protector (ISFJ) | Supervisor (ESTJ) | Inspector (ISTJ)

If you haven’t guessed already…

I did not get the job.  To say I am disappointed would be a BIG understatement. 

So, you ask, where does this leave me?  It leaves me working part-time at a job I like but don’t see any future in.  It leaves me unsure of myself and feeling pretty damn low.  Even though I was 99 and 44/100 percent sure I was NOT going to get the job, this one really hurt.  I think this is because I have been so darned flexible with covering for sick/vacationing co-workers and in doing what ever crappy job that needed to be done.  I’ve tried so hard to expand my knowledge of the job and to learn extra skills and to SHARE the knowledge that I have with everyone.

So, tomorrow, it’s back to work…acting as if this hasn’t rattled me and made me feel like crap.  It’s time to update the old resume.  I have an appointment on Monday at the Career Services Center of Southwest Florida to see if there is any funding for going back to school.  I have to do something before my age becomes an issue in hiring me.  I can’t depend on anyone else to do this for me.  I’m going to have to take the message I’ve recieved from this experience and learn from it.  I think I have.

The journey…

So, on July 19th I began a journey.  It started when I was weighed at my doctor’s office and started to cry. I was expecting to get yelled at by the doctor but, instead he listened to me cry and helped me come up with a plan to eat healthier, exercise, and lose the weight.  It’s been 27 days and I’ve managed to lose 10.8 pounds. 

To say that I am thrilled with this outcome would be an understatement.  This is the FIRST time I have ever lost this much weight.  It has been even more of a challenge because healthy food is so much more expensive than the unhealthy stuff.  I’ve been lucky to have great friends who have been very supportive and a husband who has been so wonderful about having to eat beans.   There are so many great resources out there to help you make a delicious healthy recipe.  SparkRecipes.com, AllRecipes.com, WeightWatchers.com all have some great recipes.  Google has also been a great way to find heathified versions of your favorites.

I’m looking forward to seeing what the next 27 days will bring in my journey to getting healthier.  Anyone want to join me?